Our classes were separate so that was good. And you really started to feel like in the first few weeks of being there, even walking around you felt like you were being looked at, sort of graded. And then there were all these older boys who were like, ‘Oh fresh meat. But there were three boys to every girl at MAGs. It was important to me to stay close to those friends that I had, and obviously just wanting to go with them. I had a couple of friends that were going as well. It got me going and doing stuff and being a bit more social.
I also met a guy, my first boyfriend, and that was a distraction, and it got me out of bed. And I sort of came out of that dark phase on my own, I think.
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And I think on one level I liked it because I knew I was attractive, but on the other hand, you know, you don’t know how to deal with those things and I had this sort of self-loathing, and self-hatred going on. I was struggling with depression, anxiety around fighting between mum and dad, and a dislike of myself and how my body had changed so fast from being like, what I felt was like normal and being just a kid, to actually being like a woman and having hips and boobs and all those things. I was admitted to Marinoto and started some counselling there. So I think I was left to my own devices a little bit. There was only so much she could do because she was busy with the other three kids.
And I think that was probably really exhausting for mum. And any conversations we had would result in doors being slammed and screaming and yelling matches and just not very good or nice communication. I just remember feeling angry that he left, like, ‘How could he do that’, you know? I can remember him coming to say goodbye and I was angry and pissed off. It was better than what was going on in my in life at the time. Escaping to another world of fiction was my escape.
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So I read for hours and hours and hours and refused to eat dinner and I’d just stay in bed from the time I got home until bedtime. I know I read the Harry Potter series at least seven or eight times. It was a really hard time and, you know, my way of coping with sort of everything that was going on was to come home and get into bed because I was so cold and just read. I can remember being taken into the principal’s office and being forced to drink a milo. And like, in between Year 7 and Year 8 my parents separated, and that was really really difficult. So come time for me to be in Year 8 all my friends had left, and I didn’t want to be anywhere near the other people, so I felt really isolated.
I naturally gravitate towards older people so in Year 7, I made friends with all the Year 8s. At times I can remember feeling like there was a lot of pressure to sort of keep that standard and that expectation of being cool and being ‘that girl’. It was really like that, being the centre of attention, with attention from boys as well.
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It’s like that saying, you know, ‘You can be in a room full of people and be completely alone’. Being different, and feeling so different from my peers and friends. And I went through puberty quite young so like I struggled with that at school. I think that was something that I really struggled with. People always talking about me, wanting to know what I was doing, and talking about me behind my back as well. But at the same time it was really difficult always being like the centre of attention. I was always really popular at school and really social, and I think in some ways that was great as there was always heaps of friends.
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